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Mar. 31st, 2011 | 11:03 am
music: Kurt Vile

I've been funk free for 3 weeks! That's a lot considering I would get one every week. No, I haven't made friends, no, I haven't gotten a real job, yes, my personality is still the same. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden, I just got over it all and things have been alright.

I do have friends, I just don't get to see them often. The ones I do have are just some of the greatest people I have ever met.
I am funny, not like ROFL sort of way but I like my humor. My bffs and nieces get it. I'm not the life of a party but I usually hate them so it all works out.
I will get a job soon. It's not like I'm on this unemployed-out of college boat alone, not that I feel better about it but it's just tough and it's nice being able to talk to friends about it and not feel alone or like a failure.

Yesterday, I hung out with some friends, they're great, funny, kind, cute and just amazing people. I was myself and didn't feel weird about it. As cheesy as it sounds, they like me just the way I am and I am starting to like myself.

I think most of my happiness comes from having the greatest best friend ever. No joke, he's the best. Not only does knowing I will see him gives me something to look forward to, it also makes me really happy. He teaches me how to love myself more. Although he may flatter me way too much, he does make me realize that shit I am pretty cool and there's nothing wrong with me.


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Mar. 10th, 2011 | 11:37 am
music: ducktails

the sad week continues. i really gotta learn how to be happy with myself. for a moment, i was but then when ryan said our personalities didn't mesh well it brought back all those insecurities i have. I don't think it was the fact he didn't want to continue dating me, it was more that this past year I have been getting depressed due to my personality or what i believe to be a lack thereof. I don't know why i feel the need to compare myself to others, whenever in a group i just think to myself why am i there? im not funny, pretty, outgoing, im just the quiet one who really brings nothing to the group. this may or may not be true but its something that i really believe. so bringing up my personality really hit me hard. it's rare when i find someone i feel comfortable enough to be myself around, he was one of them. he probably didn't mean it the way i'm taking it but it was just a trigger that brought back all these emotions.

i really gotta start up my missions again to keep my mind off of over-thinking things. one of them will surely be to learn how to be happy with myself. i probably have to work up to that one though.

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Mar. 8th, 2011 | 09:24 am

Dear life,
please be good to me today. I know, I don't have it that bad but I don't like being unhappy. Can you please make me more optimistic so I won't feel like such a failure since I've been back in LA for 6 months and I have yet to get a job, friends or move out of my parent's house. Also, I usually get really low self esteem when a boy rejects me and I was basically dumped yesterday so if you can help me avoid getting into a funk, that would be great!

Cool, thanks,

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Feb. 16th, 2011 | 11:10 am
music: Roky Erickson

"Women are supposed to be very calm generally: but women feel just as men feel; they need exercise for their faculties, and a field for their efforts as much as their brothers do; they suffer from too rigid a restraint, too absolute a stagnation, precisely as men would suffer; and it is narrow-minded in their more privileged fellow-creatures to say that they ought to confine themselves to making puddings and knitting stockings, to play on the piano and embroidering bags. It is thoughtless to condemn them, or laugh at them, if they seek to do more or learn more than custom has pronounced necessary for their sex."

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Mar. 16th, 2010 | 09:38 pm
mood: Ugh

"I’d much rather be happy than right, anyday."

So can I please not study for my final and have fun with my housemates?

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Wamp Wamp

Feb. 6th, 2009 | 10:02 am
music: Department of Eagles

Our record player broke


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Aug. 6th, 2008 | 06:09 pm
music: Triple J

Why can't I be as cute as SoKo?
SoKo-I'll kill her

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Jul. 26th, 2008 | 11:11 am

I hate life.

P.S. I also hate math

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Jun. 17th, 2008 | 08:25 pm
music: The Do

Juan Carlos Friday
Juan Carlos today
I guess the nurse was right, when things slip, they really slip.

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dearest bff,

Feb. 8th, 2008 | 05:29 pm
mood: happyhappy
music: birthday song!

We love you!

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